Sunday, November 1, 2009
I Do Believe in Fairies I Do I Do (Peter Pan)
Religion, magic, spiritualism, fate.... Trying to find meaning in the world around us sends me on the balance beam between science, reality and something else.
In the last year (I am not going to mention who should be blamed or thanked here, but you know who you are!) I have been obsessed with one book series or another that has put me a little on the outside of reality. Time travel, vampires, fairies, witches, shape-shifters, Scottish highlanders. Having been a Literature major in college some might say shame on me. I am constantly asking myself why these books have grabbed me so strongly? There is definitely the strong male character to look forward to, but it is the leading woman that I think is the real lure. She is not always strong, sometimes clumsy, really lucky or really unlucky. She follows a strange intuition, doesn't follow the mainstream and seems to have a pretty crazily exciting life.
Again, why? Today, I was searching online for photos of a hairstyle and trying to define what direction I wanted to go in and I realized the style I am drawn to is considered pixie. I went into the bathroom to see what I could do with my hair to make it look the way I wanted and suddenly realized that we all have a little of the fairy in us and I am just starting to find the fairy in me. I have always been able to fly in my dreams but this is a little different.
Having lost a father to cancer in literally one week, I have spent the last 6 years trying to understand the control and lack of that we all have in our lives. Since my father's death I have been trying to find a way not to lose anyone else. There is an inevitability to this all but at the same time there is something else that I have become addicted to in my own way. Helping others by making food (yes Jewish mother influence), knitting caps & blankets, whatever I can to bring good thoughts and feelings to others. Truly believing that good thoughts can make a difference. Really believing that I can make a difference. Believing that we all are capable of amazing things. Not quitting. Asking for help. Being there for others.
I do not have a wand and don't think I need one, but I really believe that I can spread a little pixie dust wherever I go and look forward to making amazing things happen.
Book list of the not so literary, entertaining, magical and especially great for new moms - easy to get through.
Janet Evanovich - Stephanie Plum Novels
Charlaine Harris - Sookie Stackhouse Series
Diana Gabaldon - Outlander Series
Stephanie Meyer - The Twilight Saga
Danielle Easly Nye